Saturday, 5 May 2012

All the people

I feel somehow...empty. It's Saturday night. And I am alone. All my friends don't have time for me. Or they aren't on the internet. It's really breaking me. My bf, or maybe ex-bf, don't care about me. I really don't feel very well.

My empty night have to fulfill videogames... >.>

Nope. I'm not in mood.

I wanna play rp. Think on something else.

Contact Lai or Iri. But one of them will say, that I'm selfish, that she wanna be alone with her family. But... you all.... do you know what? I wanna be there, when they'll need. I've been there, when they needed me.

I know. I can't throw my problems on someone else.

But it really hurts, when I realise, that I'm all alone in my life anyway. That's something what will never change.

Never change.

I wanna their help. Playing with is help. I can forget to everything in my life. But when they aren't here, I feel like shaved ... kiwi xD
I feel like stalker, when I contact them...
But today I feel .... that everyone abandoned me. First place in this act has my bf. He lied to me. Then he ran away. But I did so much for him. If I could, I would tear myself in pieces for him.

It still hurts.

I'm alone.


Never change.


Hehe... nevermore. I really like E. A. Poe. The Raven...

"Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,"

"Till I scarcely more than muttered `Other friends have flown before -
On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before.'
Then the bird said, `Nevermore.'"

"Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore -
Till the dirges of his hope that melancholy burden bore
Of "Never-nevermore."'"

"And the raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming,
And the lamp-light o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted - nevermore!"

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